Books are a big deal around here. I read all the time. My son “reads” all the time. (This is where I should say that my husband reads all the time…well, that would be a stretch. He says there is no reason to read as I tell him everything from the books I read, so he “reads” the same books I read each year. Yeah…doesn’t cut it.)
We love Oliver Jeffers books around here, picking many up from the library, and now owning many as well. Our new favorite is the book Stuck, one my son received for Christmas.
A kid gets his kite stuck in a tree, and then proceeds to throw all kinds of things at the tree to get his kite down…a shoe, a can of paint, a cat, a whale, some firemen…you get the picture. At one point, the kid finds a ladder and a saw, but instead of using them properly, he chunks them up in the tree as well…where they get stuck.
And boy, is my life quite a lot like this. Especially in the new year.
I decide I am going to get quite a bit “unstuck” right now and I make a pretty large list of ways I am going to do it.
Not feeling connection with the Lord? I’ll throw an extra Bible Study, a new Scripture memorization scheme, some cute Scripture flash cards into the fray…soon things should fall in place.
Can’t quite tackle this sin problem that keeps nagging me? How about a good shot of book reading, looking up specific verses, even “punishing” myself when I fall short…yes, that should have this sin down in no time.
But, my life isn’t quite like an Oliver Jeffers book, and no amount of throwing Christian activities at it is going to get my heart right.
Hannah Anderson in her book Made for More tells a story about a friend of hers who confessed that she had been married 4 times. Hannah was a tad shocked, until her friend confessed that it had been to the same man. She went on to explain that their marriage was an act of choosing each other over and over again.
And isn’t that what God really wants from me? To choose Him over and over again. To not just choose Christian books or cool Bible Studies or neat Scripture memorization plans…but to choose Him. And much like Hannah’s friend, that might mean starting over each day. “Each day, we choose Him again,” she says.
Today, I can sit at the feet of Jesus. Looking to Him. Looking at Him. I can stop throwing a lot of “stuff” at the things that feel stuck in my life, and instead just turn back and gaze at the One who has released me from all the things binding me today.
The “stuff” I throw is just stuff until I can see and know Jesus more. The Lord wants me, not my long list of Christian activities. Will I choose Him today?
What makes you feel stuck? What types of things do you throw at your life that might get in the way of seeing Jesus?